My findings so far .....

Im 23 years old and have been wondering what i have wanted to do the most in my life .... and came up with these.

1. I want to become a musician and i want to be good at it. ( I'm working on this)

2. I want to go river rafting, bungee jumping and para sailing.

3. I want to face a near death situation. i believe that it will help me appreciate life.

4. I want to learn to ride a horse.

5. I want to domesticate a baby elephant and name him Horton

6. I want to have a monkey as a pet and i want him to help me with household chores

7. I want to quit my job and become a hitch hiker.

8. sometimes i fervently wish i were a guy but i also don't want to give up being a girl :)

9. I think a lot of people envy me and i like it.

10. Little things do matter.

11. I have few friends and i love them and believe they are very important to me.

12. I really don't know what kind of person i am.

13. I want to go around Europe and pitch a tent in the country side and live there for a couple of days

14. I want to live in New York city with my family for at least 1 year.

15. I wish i could sing flawlessly

16. I wish i made a difference in some one's life

17. I wish i meet someone who makes me think I'm nothing when compared to him.

18. I wish someone gave me a gift that i loved without me telling that i actually love it.

19. I wish i still had the love birds, the parrot (manju) the three squirrels ,the two pigeons and three sparrows at home and the monkey (pandiamma) (Yes we had a monkey at home it is awesome fun)

20. I think I'm smarter than a lot of people around me and I m glad about it.

21. I want to play the guitar and the drums without someone teaching me how to play them.

to be continued ........

Zara yaad karo kurbani !!

It was a fun weekend :). I went to IIT madras to take part in an event called "Outbound at dawn" which was part of Saarang. I had been there before for the same event last year and our team won.

here is what we do to win this event. do the following in the shortest time.

cross over a rope bridge, run some 2 kms inside a forest infested with thorns and pebbles , only to find a raft made with barrels and bamboos waiting on one side of the lake, hitch a hike on the raft and try rowing through the lake in harmony with your eight other team mates and reach the bank safe, crawl like a monkey on a rope tied across two trees, walk on bamboo stills which have been tied like an A frame...  sigh!!!!!!

I'm too exhausted from doing all these stuff that i cannot waste more energy writing about it. 

one thing i cannot comprehend is the fact that doing all this for a 4 hour fun sake has made me tired for almost two days ..how on earth do the defense guys work it out in extreme conditions too. I think i need to show a little more concern while writing about them, honestly i wish i could but i do not have the energy or the creativity faucet at my disposal at the moment. I salute those guys.

Spare the Rod ....

He should learn to live ... surrounded by hatred and negligence .. uncared and Alone in the blende of this monotonous world .....

but sometimes it feels good to spare the rod ... even if not exactly spare the rod .. may be spoil the child.

ah !! now you must be wondering what I'm talking about !! :)  a couple of years ago ... something very insignificant happened about which i had written down on my little journal. was flipping through it and felt i should enunciate!!! 

It was a cool winter afternoon, the weather was fine and you could not wish there were a better day than that in the middle of the desert.I was coming back to my hostel from the insti with a friend of mine, wheeling my cycle. Something seemed to be interested in following us... it was a cute little puppy with a black patch around it's snout. It bore an expression of untold Sorrow ... something that struck too close to home it was as if he did not know what to do next, where to go .. what to do .... i would have picked him up and given him a hug but  i didnt want to .. for No Reason. 

We gazed at him for sometime and started walking again. he followed. We stopped .. he stopped too. We didnt know what he expected. We started riding, he started running behind us. i wanted to give him something to eat ... something stopped me.... something in my head kept saying why spoil the child ... he should learn to live alone in the blend of this monotonous world. 

I rode faster and kept thinking about the little one ... somehow the reason i told myself to escape from doing something to the dog was not something even i would buy. so I decided to get  my cycle and went back there .. i didn not have to look for him ....  he was standing right there near my cycle.... then i got some biscuits for him and he ate it like a little kid. then i took him out and left him near the temple wishing someone will take care of him... then wheeled back to the hostel.... as i did somethng caught my attention. the puppy came behind me and went ahead to the dumpster ... and started sniffing something .. it was a dead dog !!! Probably his mother !